tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38643992011-04-22T03:57:10.618+08:00laces-and-studshere i spurt.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comBlogger7081100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089913165965043322004-07-16T01:38:00.000+08:002004-07-16T01:54:12.976+08:00i decided to change to a new blog.
hmmm.
FEINTGLOEdelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089872195724897372004-07-15T14:12:00.000+08:002004-07-15T14:16:35.726+08:00are u diggin on me. cuz im diggin on u.
hahaha
fucking hell. i shaved off too much of my brows. hahahahahahahahahahaha
and i snipped off a lot of my hair too.
yes. thats how bored i got.
well well.
illustration is not as easy as it seems. didnt expect it to be so mathematical.
so im not goin for the class today. sian sian. two hours at the end at the day? what kind of time table is delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089642875731107962004-07-12T22:31:00.000+08:002004-07-12T22:34:35.730+08:00pink clouds.
"its nice for you to look at me".
he was gorgeous. drop dead.
it was like a cute teen drama.
his smile was meltifying.
hah. that made my day.
you fucking yummy caucasian faggot you.
and yea. today was filled with sewing. sewing on an industrial sewing machine. which was god damn fast. i almost sewed my finger.
other than that.
im happy im happy.
HAHA. delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089386829778291002004-07-09T23:25:00.000+08:002004-07-09T23:27:09.776+08:00enough is enough is enough is enough.
enough with the sighing already kill.
enough with the emotionality.
enough with the drama.
wake up.
reach your dreams.
smile.
think less on stupid shit.
haha.
im funny. im evil. im funny. ive been the devil all along.
sorry to you.
kisses?delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089346981372065482004-07-09T12:16:00.000+08:002004-07-09T12:23:01.373+08:00remnants of me.
its finally a weekend.
a friday.
i have no classes today.
i had multiple dreams yesterday night.
dreams about fashion.
fashion. fashion. fashion.
dreams about loneliness and missing him.
dreams about crying and dying.
im going to arts house later in the afternoon to see an exhibition.
HAIZ.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089132289544942482004-07-07T00:37:00.000+08:002004-07-07T00:44:49.546+08:00been having bad bad bad days.
bad. tired. sleepy. sleepy.
bad bad bad days.
bad. bad bad.
days.
minus the classes. which i paid soooooo much attention to.
duh.
yea. DUH.
duh. duh.
ive been having bad bad bad days.
BAD. did u hear me. BAD.
excuse me if ive been truly uninterested or cold or day dreaming and blur.
what am i thinking about.
lalalalalalala.
ive been having bad bad bad days.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089040746490906982004-07-05T23:08:00.000+08:002004-07-05T23:19:06.490+08:00i only fly away.
SUNDAY.
guess whats on sunday.
had a date with mister boyfriend.
went to samar cafe. a turkish inspired restaurant place.
had fun.
tho i got bored.
bought make up. dull green eye shadow. jeez.
and green nail polish.
and hair wax.
had fun.
had a difficult parting.
very very difficult.
so hard to let the day end just like that. and the next day is a brand new day.
aka. start delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1089040115738902842004-07-04T23:07:00.000+08:002004-07-05T23:08:35.736+08:00yes. im going to hav a huge bowl of creamy yummy slurrpy icecream later.
ALONE.
yes u heard me right.
alone.
nothing's done best when u are all alone.
grrr.
i need to drink.
i wanna be an alcoholic. hmmm.
yes. alone. thats how sappy my life can be.
aww. come on writers. do an autobiography of my life.
its gonna hit the bestsellers. NOT.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
yay. and school's on delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088846161555171362004-07-03T17:15:00.001+08:002004-07-03T17:16:01.556+08:00"Hammering In My Head"
I'm stressed but you're freestyle
I'm overworked but I'm undersexed
I must be made of concrete
I sign my name across your chest
Give out the same old answers
I trot them out for the relatives
Company tried and tested
I use the ones that I love the best
Like an animal you're moving over me
Like an animal you're moving over me
When did I get perverted
I can't delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088846123010662382004-07-03T17:15:00.000+08:002004-07-03T17:15:23.010+08:00"I Think I'm Paranoid"
You can look, but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove
I think I'm paranoid
And complicated
I think I'm paranoid
Manipulate it
[Chorus:]
Bend me, break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me, break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you
I fall down just to give you delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088846098604302972004-07-03T17:14:00.000+08:002004-07-03T17:14:58.606+08:00"Milk"
I am milk
I am red hot kitchen
And I am cool
Cool as the deep blue ocean
I am lost
So I am cruel
But I'd be love and sweetness
If I had you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I am weak
But I am strong
I can use my tears to
Bring you home
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
Idelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088839861396199992004-07-03T15:24:00.000+08:002004-07-03T15:31:01.396+08:00its just so sad huh. that my someone special was out having a whole lot of fun and creating bonding with his classmates and drinking and yadayadayada. while i was so alone the whole day. waited for his messages. his calls. but none. only to get it in the middle of th night. after i myself messaged him.
bleargh.
so i didnt spend my own time alone, just like wha my horoscope tells me to do.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088839352584936322004-07-03T15:22:00.000+08:002004-07-03T15:22:32.583+08:00July 2 - 4, 2004
Dear Kill,
If you have any kind of commitment to do anything involving a group of people on Friday, you might just feel like blowing it off and indulging your own particular interests and desires. You'll probably feel more like spending a quiet weekend around the house with someone special than going out on the town. A secret rendezvous away from prying eyes could prove to be delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088703884610550692004-07-02T01:38:00.000+08:002004-07-02T01:44:44.610+08:00little india romance.
hah. i went to little india today to have some thosai. and walked about tekka mall. got myself ear studs and the things are cheap.
went to little india arcade and had a headache of a lifetime.
felt queezy.
went to sungei road to venture that place. saw lotsa cheap shit. yea. i mean it, SHIT.
went to arab street and bussorah street. found a chic turkish place.
had no delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088703056534977362004-07-02T01:29:00.000+08:002004-07-02T01:30:56.536+08:00MISSING MY BABY
You're always on my mind, day and night
When I think of you, boy, ev'rything feels so right
Well, I often think of the happy times we spent together
And I just can't wait to tell you that I love you
Time keeps passing by--you're not here
I feel so all alone when I don't have you near
But I often think of the happy times we spent together
And I just can't wait to tell you delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088702818595602262004-07-02T01:21:00.000+08:002004-07-02T01:26:58.596+08:00EVERY HEARTBEAT
Hear me speak what's on my mind
Let me give this testimony
Reaffirm that you will find
That you are my one and only
No exception to this rule
I'm simple, but I'm no fool
I've got a witness happy to say
Every hour, every day
Every heartbeat bears your name
Loud and clear, they stake my claim
Ask anyone, and they'll tell you it's true
And ev'ry heartbeat belongs to youdelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088702460979064762004-07-02T01:19:00.000+08:002004-07-02T01:21:00.980+08:00THINKING OF YOU
Look in my eyes
I know you see the love inside me.
I know that you're scared,
but I'm not gonna hurt you baby.
Just give me your hand (give me your hand)
I'll show you love is never ending,
We will fly away, and never look back again, no
I wanna take you away,
I got a little house where we can stay.
I wanna make you my own.
If you don't try you'll never know.
'Cause I could bedelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088573321498640112004-06-30T13:28:00.000+08:002004-06-30T13:28:41.496+08:00(Grey Sky Morning)
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088573228021087162004-06-30T13:26:00.000+08:002004-06-30T13:27:08.020+08:00Without You
Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say good-bye
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could see
Who's to blame
Chorus :
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088524200129107012004-06-29T23:18:00.000+08:002004-06-29T23:50:00.130+08:00sleep.
the sun shone through green tinted windows casting a sickly glow into the room of deep majestic purple walls. the color similar to the color of aubergines seems to be coming to life. in bright day light.
stared at the walls. purple. aids intuition.
the acrid smell of smoke filled the room. clouds of gray intoxicating smoke.
laid there still.
not to move the narrow bed.
not to disturb delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1088102841020559972004-06-25T02:33:00.000+08:002004-06-25T02:47:21.020+08:00sick.
im still sick. ive not recovered proper.
for one month i guess.
migranes and headaches are returning and the smell of phlegm is still stuck to my nose.
and as i live my bleak days.
and i think of my relationship.
and i think of nothing else but him.
and i count the sticks of fag left in its box.
and i smell the fragrance of coffee.
and i do up my hair everytime.
as days passed by, ivedelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087927455557155272004-06-23T01:59:00.000+08:002004-06-23T02:04:15.556+08:00disgust.
argh. disgust. disgust. disgusted. disgusting.
DISGUST!
disgust. disgust. disgust. disgust. disgust.
why the fuck am i thinking about his past girlfriends and that fucker faggot he used to long for.
and those things they did before. those bloody sluts. those bloody bitches. those bloody fucks.
why the fuck must they even be in his life.
arh. what is happeneing to me. what is delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087876341160409442004-06-22T11:51:00.000+08:002004-06-22T11:52:21.160+08:00Come Talk To Me
The wretched desert takes its form, the jackal proud and tight
In search of you, I feel my way, though the slowest heaving night
Whatever fear invents, I swear it make no sense
I reach through the border fence
Come down, come talk to me
In the swirling, curling storm of desire unuttered words hold fast
With reptile tongue, the lightning lashes towers built to last
Darkness delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087852910627985982004-06-22T05:13:00.000+08:002004-06-22T05:21:50.626+08:00smoke.mosquitoes.thinner.twiggies.
i woke up seven times every one hour of sleep.
scratching a new reddish swell on my knees, thighs, hand, arm, shoulders, everywhere, each time i wake up.
fucking pests.
now i truly cannot sleep. cuz when i finally yelled at myself and got up from the bed, i accidentally hit a bottle of thinner next to my bed and splashed it all over the fucking carpet.
the delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087731812865397672004-06-20T19:23:00.000+08:002004-06-20T21:22:32.716+08:00the beach.
how much i hate the sun, i had to go to the beach to help save nisha from her relatives and church members's picnic.
so we painted. painted.
i tried to keep myself occupied with work to not think much about certain things.
now im waitin for my hair to be colored. yawnz.
i hope it will be green soon.
green green. weeee... ok good night all.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087665844110241152004-06-20T01:23:00.000+08:002004-06-20T01:24:04.110+08:00haha.
young kids are funny.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087663299231998992004-06-20T00:37:00.000+08:002004-06-20T00:41:39.230+08:00green hair that isnt green at all.
stupid fuck. stupid fucking stupid fuck.
bored. the whole day was boring. jaded. boring. dead. fucked up shit.
except when im with nisha for a few hours.
but yeah.
thinking to myself so much.
thinking. thinking. feeling lethargic like fuck.
feeling emotionless.
yes. numb.
me. numb.
cant smile. cant laugh. cant cry. cant think. cannot talk.
i love him.
sawdelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087582401057835502004-06-19T01:55:00.000+08:002004-06-19T02:13:21.056+08:00without you where do i belong. without you how can i go on.
no love but yours will ever do. tell me how am i supposed to live my life, WITHOUT YOU.
BLABLA. yea. sappy as i maysound. haha. haiz. just feel so LOST. dont know what to do. miss him so much. and i don know what to do. and i dunno what am i going to do when i get to see him. and i dunno what to say when he is infront of me.
haiz.
me delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087488281017528302004-06-17T23:54:00.000+08:002004-06-18T00:04:41.016+08:00stella artois.
i had a great. GREAT time today.
thank you rizal for everything.
i watched the preview of connie and carla at fort canning. starlight cinema.
:)
smiles. and more smiles.
tho the day was filled with mostly waiting for people to arrive. yada yada.
thank you my darling julio for the box of sinz chocolat that has i l-o-v-e y-o-u inscribed on each piece of chocolate.. clumsy delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087406280721054482004-06-17T01:05:00.000+08:002004-06-17T01:24:01.393+08:00rest in peace.
haha. i cant sleep and i am B-o-R-e-D.
i hate ashley simpson's voice. its lame.
huffing and puffing my final stick of fag.
grrrr.
no money. no money. no money.
shit. no money to buy fags.
yay. kim bought me a pack of green hair dye. slurrp.
yay. adiemus aka julio aka pumpkin called.
then i remembered my dream last night.
it was another crappy weird dream.
firstly, it was delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-10874031899190812004-06-17T00:19:00.000+08:002004-06-17T00:29:16.063+08:00my dreams came true, when i found you, MY MIRACLE.
im very happy today.
unplanningly went to orchard road to meet sri rahayu razaly and her friend.
went about. blabla. accidentally saw 'judas'.
:)
we went to bugis and gladly found this cute purple pinstriped pants.
and guess how much it's worth.
two bloody bucks.
hah.
yea. and yeah.
i got it ofcourse.
hahaha. ok shhh. that doesnt meandelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087319448581019242004-06-16T00:58:00.000+08:002004-06-16T01:10:48.583+08:00je manques....
its one am now here in pasir ris, eastern singapore, tip of peninsular malaysia, tropical clean and green concrete jungle place.
bleargh.
its been days since ive seen him.
its been hours since ive heard him.
i miss him so much already. hmmm.
gotta try to keep telling myself to not be this way for too long. he might not like it.
oh jeeeee. argh.
fags after fags lit and toxic delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087276920953343472004-06-15T13:13:00.000+08:002004-06-16T01:30:24.033+08:00baise moi.
lalalala.
bored. tuesday. boring. hot. dead. boring. bleargh
did anyone notice what's changed in my entries?
haha.
all my entries are still crap.
oh well.
yesterday i was so bored. dressed up. went to whitesands. haha.
met sri rahayu razaly.
bought orange menthol flavored fags.
its been two days since i last met my dearest..
haiz.
he's been working so hard...
playin blonde delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1087122966478973812004-06-13T18:33:00.000+08:002004-06-13T18:36:06.480+08:00off-CEntre.
what the fuck.what the fuck. what the fuck.
what the fuck is wrong with my screen. the colors are "leaking". jeeez. one after another fucking problem.
jeez.
anyway. yea. today is sunday. hah. and im bored. at home. just finished sewing this pathetic tote-bag shit.
hmmm.
julio slept over last night. slurrp.
i love you julio darling. haha.
i cant wait for july 5th. hmmm.
ARGH idelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086978326060645002004-06-11T23:12:00.000+08:002004-06-12T02:25:26.060+08:00sing about bad knee joints.
hello hello.
after an hour or two of crying, yeah. finally it ends there.
happiness blankets me once more.
second year, here i come.
this is joy. joy that needs celebration.
apart from love.
oh love sweet love.
i could celebrate love almost everyday.
woohoo.
we're different. but we feel the same thing.
we need understanding.
sheer UNDERSTANDING.
great. today delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086849819001171322004-06-10T14:43:00.000+08:002004-06-10T14:43:39.003+08:00I Believe
Have you ever reached a rainbow's end?
Did you find your pot of gold?
Ever catch a shooting star?
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake?
And the magic that surrounds you
Can lift you up and guide you on your way
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt one hundred thousand dreams before
And now I finally realize
You delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086849390418694822004-06-10T14:32:00.000+08:002004-06-10T14:36:30.416+08:00Protège moi
C'est le malaise du moment,
L'épidémie qui s'étend,
La fête est finie, on descend,
Les pensées qui glacent la raison.
Paupières baissées, visages gris,
Surgissent les fantômes de notre lit;
On ouvre le loquet de la grille
Du taudis qu'on appelle maison.
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me, protect me
Protège-moi, delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086844718964843772004-06-10T13:17:00.000+08:002004-06-10T14:19:13.976+08:00romeo+julio forever.
great. fucking computer.
some virus is taking over whenever i log onto the internet. fuck. haiz
kept shuttin down. jeez... fuck someone help.
oh great. so i am hoping it wouldnt shut down again.
im rotting away at home. with a throbbing throbbing throbbing headache.
grrrrrrrrrrr.
so i guess i might be going out later. alone.
haiz.
oh i love you julio.
hah.
haiz. delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086123213668189612004-06-02T04:51:00.000+08:002004-06-02T04:53:33.670+08:00Pisces & Virgo
When Virgo and Pisces join together in a love match, it generally makes for a healthy relationship. The two Signs are opposite one another within the Zodiac, and such Signs tend to be well balanced, one making up for qualities the other lacks. They are an easy-going, do-gooding duo, and often devote their time to helping others as well as one another. Each partner in this couple delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086121499722299722004-06-02T04:14:00.000+08:002004-06-02T04:28:46.170+08:00sleep makes everything feel so much better.
but dont forget the kisses too.
i had a great day today.
i cant keep it to myself. despite everything, yeah.
I HAD A WONDERFUL PICNIC! WOOHOO...
i am very happy to see pumpkin again and spend time with him.
he made me color his hair.
i love his fringe. highlights of
a dark shade of reddish pink. kindof similar to mine. yea.
now i cannot makedelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1086087937254199112004-06-01T19:04:00.000+08:002004-06-02T04:37:08.696+08:00bleargh.
dear bloggy.
i somehow "planned" some "romantic" picnic
at the beach for today..
but.
BLOODY FUCKING FUCKER IDIOTIC PATHETIC RAIN SPOILS IT ALL.
well, not really spoil it, but yea. just couldnt go to the beach to star gaze and watch the sunset and look at the peaceful seascape and enjoy each other's embrace, with the moon's angelic glow upon our skin.
oh well.
candlelight and delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085963868472170212004-05-31T08:35:00.000+08:002004-05-31T08:37:48.473+08:00Candy Perfume boy
Young velvet porcelain boy
Devour me when you're with me
Blue wish window seas
Speak delicious fires
I'm your candy perfume boy
Your candy perfume boy
Moist warm desire
Fly to me
I'm your candy perfume boy
Your candy perfume boy
I'm your candy perfume boy
Candy, candy
Rush me ghost you see
Every center my home
Fever steam boy
Throb the oceans
Your candy perfume boy
Your delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085961472613618222004-05-31T07:39:00.000+08:002004-05-31T07:57:52.613+08:00ray of light.
i stared at the deep violet sky.
breathing slowly with synchronisation.
watching birds flying by.
thinking of how beautiful nature is.
how perfect it is.
god's creation.
i saw the first burst of light.
spectacular illusionary splashes of color and light.
the amazement didnt last long.
but i know it will happen once more.
and i could enjoy it all over again.
i want to hold delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085896366576810602004-05-30T13:45:00.000+08:002004-05-30T13:52:46.576+08:00--ILL--
dear bloggy.
i am down with influenza and fever and cough and a bad bad migrane.
i miss my darling..
i couldnt sleep last night.
i slept,
but woke up a few hundred times with a stuffed nose and sore watering eyes.
while i was sleeping, i dreamt that i was somehow running away?
or trying to run after someone. hmm.
there was me, and two other people.
i didnt know who they are.
a delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085809062970325922004-05-29T13:19:00.000+08:002004-05-29T13:37:42.970+08:00your special someone needs your attention.
horoscopes. are they true. or just coincidental.
waking up in a jolt.
another bad dream.
another omen.
whats with my fate these days.
yes. and i cant stop hating myself.
countless cuts on my arm. i had to hurt myself.
i feel too shitty.
"it has lost its deepest meaning already."
wont believe a single thing i say now.
i deserve this.
ive done delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085471863244678722004-05-25T15:44:00.000+08:002004-05-25T15:57:43.243+08:00Blood. gore. pain. running away.
i had another dream.
i love my dreams.
two strangers tried to hunt me down.
but i slit their throats with their own weapons.
but they didnt die.
they kept running after me.
they chained me in a dungeon kindof place.
i got myself free.
i killed them again.
this time i stabbed their hearts with
my parang.
the end.
i love happy endings.
the weird thing is delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085392572619590352004-05-24T17:46:00.000+08:002004-05-24T17:56:12.620+08:00yummy.
right. orchard during weekdays are infested with YUMMY shit.
shit=people=MEN.
hah.ok lame. im getting lame+boring.
i had my art theory paper just now. i guess i could answer the questions. but.
hmmm oh well.
yay. goin shopping this wednesday. weeeeee.
i need:
-pants from POA
-another studded belt (P.S. KINKY, when are you going to return my belt.)
-shirts. tshirts.
-another pair of delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085241359164559092004-05-22T23:50:00.000+08:002004-05-23T04:10:12.720+08:00desire
heh.
dear bloggy.
why do i enjoy inflicting pain.
why do i get entertained looking at the expressions of pple
i inflict pain to.
that is the question.
?
hah.
im sado-masochistic.
im sick.
hmmmm.
my room is in a mess again.
im horny again.
FANTASIZE.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085241025373998302004-05-22T23:49:00.000+08:002004-07-02T15:53:48.680+08:00shit.
lifes been a bitch?
oh yes it has.
who's the bitch?
oh its no other than me.
so. mistakes ive made.
mistakes. mistakes.
i am still pondering about my old mistakes.
and its really an unfinished business.
apologies needed to be made.
tho apologies are worthless at all now.
parents. they are to be blamed for that ntuc incident.
you left me for a long long long fucking time. then u delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085240948949496482004-05-22T23:48:00.000+08:002004-05-22T23:49:08.950+08:00Play Dead
Darling stop confusing me
With your wishful thinking
Hopeful embraces
Don't you understand?I have to go through this
I belong to here where
No-one cares and no-one loves
No light no air to live in
A place called hate
The city of fear
I play dead
It stops the hurting
I play dead
And the hurting stops
It's sometimes just like sleeping
Curling up inside my private tortures
I nestle into delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085215661736074062004-05-22T16:38:00.000+08:002004-05-22T16:47:41.736+08:00lime.rose.tea.
sipping away a refreshing ice cold glass of drink
after a tiresome five hours of cleaning and rearranging funiture in my pathetic room.
all i need now is a long warm bubbly shower
and a doze of nicotine.
i am supposed to study hard for my paper.
i will study hard.
soon i guess.
i need pumpkin now.
listening to madonna's MUSIC album.
hah.
i love my clean room.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1085157273449839722004-05-22T00:23:00.000+08:002004-05-22T00:34:33.450+08:00----:MASTURBATION CURES RESTLESSNESS:----
DEAR DEAR BLOGGY.
simon rex is GOD DAMN FUCKING HOT.
COFFEE makes me sick.
i miss my BOYFRIEND.
today i had a good day, if u might be wondering.
hah.
i am addicted to bjork's bachelorette.
a song ive loved since i was a kid.
i love the video especially.
i had to sit for another ART THEORY examination this monday and have to achieve a credit delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084899697114639432004-05-19T00:47:00.000+08:002004-05-19T01:12:25.643+08:00CHOOSE YOUR ENDING.
suicide.
murder.
infedility.
ego.
frivolous quarrels.
misunderstanding.
blablabla.
stabs the heart deeper than any blade could reach.
pain that beats all pain.
thou shall not speaketh of endings.
for its just the beginning of all things.
old is new. new is old.
LOVE.
has no endings.
unless there is no love at all.
dear blog.
i went to the twenty-eighth delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084816532627678082004-05-18T01:54:00.000+08:002004-05-18T01:55:32.626+08:00hahaha. i got bored
really really bored.
and ive got nothing to do but worry.
so. yeah. hahahahahaha
painting is so much better.
and sewing.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084808613722221802004-05-17T23:08:00.000+08:002004-05-17T23:43:33.723+08:00noir.
an ardent desire
to unleash
these emotions
deep
beneathe my skin.
heart beats
for no other
soul
but yours.
loving me.
promise me.
trust me.
a feeling
i should celebrate
and be glad
about.
how can i ever
thought of the
worst.
the
unexpected happens.
but
i know
that u
are the one
that keeps me
alive.
yet.
still
there's this blurring
feeling.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084806527868641922004-05-17T23:07:00.001+08:002004-05-17T23:08:47.866+08:00Unstoppable
the calling.
Come and lay right on my bed, sit and drink some wine
I'll try not to make you cry
And if you'd get inside my head, then you'd understand
Then you'd understand me
Why I've felt so alone, why i kept myself from love
And you became my favorite drug
So let me take you right now and swallow you down,
I need you inside
[Chorus:]
If we had this night together
If we had a delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084806448676296822004-05-17T23:07:00.000+08:002004-05-17T23:07:28.676+08:00Wherever You Will Go
So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own
[chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe,delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084806419433834252004-05-17T23:06:00.000+08:002004-05-17T23:06:59.433+08:00For You
I am a vision
I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows
Fading existance
It was never good enough
Within the darkness
You are the light that shines the way
But you're trapped in violence
I can be the man who saves the day
I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For You
Someone's changed me
Something's saved me
And delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084806384551515352004-05-17T22:58:00.000+08:002004-05-17T23:06:24.553+08:00Bachelorette
I'm a fountain of blood
In the shape of a girl
You're the bird on the brim
Hypnotised by the Whirl
Drink me, make me feel real
Wet your beak in the stream
Game we're playing is life
Love is a two way dream
Leave me now, return tonight
Tide will show you the way
If you forget my name
You will go astray
Like a killer whale
Trapped in a bay
I'm a path of cinders
Burning under yourdelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084729093745366382004-05-17T01:24:00.000+08:002004-05-17T01:38:13.746+08:00bachelorette.sick.envy.pathetic.tired.fucked.uncurable.
hello dear blog.
why am i feeling so sick.
why am i feeling so envious.
why am i so pathetic.
dear blog.
dear dear blog.
why dear blog.
why am i in such a position dear blog.
why am i in such a life blog.
why am i asking for trouble dear blog.
why am i troubled dear blog.
haha.
blog. i cant help me.
no one can.
but it helps me a delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084640512148174622004-05-16T00:51:00.000+08:002004-05-16T01:01:52.150+08:00pinky brown.grande coffee.teriyaki.feel.purple.sleeve.
feeling weird now. looking freaky now. hah.
right. i just had my hair colored pinky brown. bleargh.
and kidman shaved off my right side. and its bald now. thanx.
hahahaha. but i look fine. still. :)
pumpkin will call me ridiculous.
but im happy with it still. nothing is more disastrous than what i made my life to be.
right.
so yea..
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084553857663216562004-05-15T00:54:00.003+08:002004-05-15T01:02:43.856+08:00I LOVE YOU BABY PUMPKIN DARLING DEAREST PONY-RIDER SWEET PRINCE CHUPA CHUPS HONEY SWEETHEART SAYANG ADIEMUS RAFIQIN. HEHE. MUACKZ AND POPZ!
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084552173799022102004-05-15T00:28:00.002+08:002004-05-15T00:34:42.196+08:00'would you like coke, ice lemon tea or pee?'
munching away on fruit and nut assortment. lol.
i love raisins and i love hazelnuts and pecans. slurrp.
right. i am really hungry.
hmmm. whats with my increasing appetite. kewl.
i can hear distant thuds and thumps of drum beats.
jeez. this is annoying. i want tranquility.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084520480428046792004-05-14T15:17:00.000+08:002004-05-14T15:41:20.426+08:00YEAH HATE ME. HATE ME ALL YOU WANT. THATS WHAT IM TRYNA DO. MAKE YOU HATE ME.
I AINT LOSING ANYTHING HERE.
OOO TOUCHY.
RIGHT. JUST NOW.
I CAME A BIT TOO EARLY CUZ WE'RE SUPPOSED TO MEET AT ELEVEN THIRTY.
BUT HE CHANGED THE TIME AT THE LAST MINUTE.
AND I AM ALREADY OUT.
HE REACHED AT TWELVE THIRTY.
SUPERB.
YEAH I KNOW. HE MIGHT HAVE HIS REASONS.
IM BEING IRRATIONAL.
SO I JUST GOT BACK HOME FROMdelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084378114710010262004-05-12T23:52:00.000+08:002004-05-13T00:08:34.710+08:00im rude-whore the red nosed faggot.
standing in the train.
almost fainted and puked.
had coffee at spinelli's with fai and chatted.
had long funny chatting sessions.
yea. the irony of it all.
i just stepped out of the shower.
my space bar key has just came out.
thank lord i can still use it.
but its annoying me.
LALALALALA..
OOOOO. ive got hypocrites as friends/acquintances now. woohoo.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084345159907454622004-05-12T14:56:00.000+08:002004-05-12T15:01:36.740+08:00my blog is full of crap.
hey. hello. i love you. tell me your name.
okay. great. my space bar is spoilt.
fucking hell.
ok. ive found lotsa coins from all over the house. and it adds up to
s i x dollars.
bleargh.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084341747998246102004-05-12T13:57:00.000+08:002004-05-12T14:02:27.996+08:00everytime i see you falling i get down on my knees and pray.
unbelievably listening to remixes of britney's everytime. haha. and dancing away to tunes of sarah brightman's harem album.
hah.
and singing away to anastacia's left outside alone.
ironic. irony. ironic.
haha. i feel weird.
hmmmm. ok so yea. its unbelievable also, that i am going to meet ida's boyfriend to have some talk later in delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084341303648993122004-05-12T13:54:00.000+08:002004-05-12T13:55:03.646+08:00Left Outside Alone
All my life i've been waiting
for you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not ok, i dont feel safe
I dont feel safe (oooh)
Left Broken, empty and in despair
Wanna breathe, can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
so much more i have to say
help me find a way
And i wonder if you know
how it reallydelicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084180439170225822004-05-10T17:06:00.000+08:002004-05-10T17:13:59.170+08:00reading kills boredom. reminiscing kills the brain.
yes. i am still here. bored. at home. bored. with nothing to do.
so i read through every single one of my entries in my blog.
my blog is mostly filled with my obsession for him.
like its a blog dedicated to him.
some of my entries are embarrasing.
i couldnt believe i wrote those shit.
what do i see in my past entries? that i have been a delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084173194549364932004-05-10T15:11:00.000+08:002004-05-10T15:21:08.590+08:00...heh...
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084171541151667062004-05-10T14:42:00.000+08:002004-05-10T15:04:57.620+08:00WHEN two MEN kiss.
When two men kiss
Walk hand in hand
The fear of what
You don't understand
Explodes into violence
Screams break the silence
"The guy was a poof"
"The guy was queer"
Dehumanised
And living in fear
No, you're not thick
And you say they're sick
But the only sickness
I can see
Is the cancer of
What kind of society do we live in where the simple act of showing love and affection delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084166305159151532004-05-10T13:15:00.000+08:002004-05-10T14:42:16.400+08:00eat eat eat. its good for you. it makes u fat. but makes me still so fucking thin.hello blog.
i am feeling pretty lame right now.
i woke up late.
and i am missing my dearest boyfriend so fucking much.
oh well.
he has to work today.
and he has to work alot.
i pity him for having so much work to do.
while i am just sleeping away.
oh well.
hmmmm.
but heck.
hey blogger changed its layout?
it delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084112866579949802004-05-09T22:27:00.000+08:002004-05-09T22:32:09.920+08:00purple.gray.green.clouds.
i am so full my tummy feels like exploding. i miss him.
he is still at work.
i love celebrations.
i get to eat alot.
today was an ordinary day.
went spotlight. hoping to find something nice.
well, hoping to get something nice some other day since i am broke again.
hmmm.
i wish my money wont run dry.
hah. like as tho i make them.
pity parents.
hmmm oh well. i am delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084072617952913082004-05-09T11:16:00.000+08:002004-05-09T11:21:20.826+08:00paintin my nails black and red now. gonna meet kidman later to pass her some accessories to wear for her toni&guy modelling thingy.
my hair is still not purple.
kidman's hair is green.
i envy her. i wanted green hair.
smoke smoke smoke its good for you.
guess what. some people are just fucking hypocrites and assholic bitches.
bleargh.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1084039756342344972004-05-09T02:09:00.000+08:002004-05-09T02:13:38.856+08:00i did some shoppin today and it was fine.
got myself two tshirts.
yay.
two more tshirts.
one darkbrown one and one purple ringer. slurrp.
im sorry pumpkin for my sulky face. i was having a bad migrane. i felt sick baby.
i love you loads pumpkin. i will never leave you...
i love you so much it hurts.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083949854940952452004-05-08T01:10:00.001+08:002004-05-08T01:17:36.310+08:00Everytime
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083949804617208322004-05-08T01:10:00.000+08:002004-05-08T01:14:25.750+08:00Someone Like Me
Don't let your head rule you heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
I know Its hard when you're feeling down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes but doesn't everybody
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
That's the delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083939303413975942004-05-07T22:15:00.000+08:002004-05-07T22:19:24.326+08:00it feels weird to see again.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083935865363982392004-05-07T21:17:00.000+08:002004-05-07T21:22:06.216+08:00my name is nick. i like dick.
aight. so i went to school just now.
i missed that place.
im going to miss that place.
i went to the 'cancer ward' aka substation aka smoking area alone.
and i was about to weep.
haiz.
what if thats gonna be my last time there.
haiz.
that place. everything.
the people.
haiz.
im scared. really really scared.
sometimes i wished i wasnt myself.
what if i shouldve delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083934088812233652004-05-07T20:48:00.000+08:002004-05-07T20:52:29.326+08:00i can see. i can bloody fucking see.
i am not disabled anymore.
i am not blind no more.
i can see. i can see.
i can see.
beware yummy freaks.
beware bitchy sluts.
beware assholes.
i can wink.
i can roll my eyes.
i can stare back.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083856020808370282004-05-06T23:07:00.000+08:002004-05-06T23:11:21.250+08:00haha... is it my room or are all my girl-friends horny perverted people. hahahah.
licking. carrasing. smooching. nipples and breasts are all they thought of while playing truth or dare. lol. hahahahahah.
cute.
i had fun fun fun. thanks. im very happy... hehehe..delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083855234195438682004-05-06T22:53:00.000+08:002004-05-06T22:58:13.250+08:00ive got raspberry seeds stuck on my teeth. shucks. i cant sleep alone anymore. i need him by my side. hmmm. i think its time i need to get a bolster.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083855114069748042004-05-06T22:51:00.000+08:002004-05-06T22:56:13.140+08:00wednesday.
pumpkin made dessert for my friends' gathering at my place on thursday.
slept over.
i slept while waiting for him again.
waste. waste. waste.
thursday.
a day when friends unite and had fun and laughed and laughed and had fun.
i cooked
+lemon chicken with salsa.
+broccoli and caramelized onion and sultanas pizza.
+fried aubergines
+mashed potatoes with raspberry sauce.
pumpkin made delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083672047134235912004-05-04T20:00:00.000+08:002004-05-04T20:04:37.623+08:00its really hard to satisfy me.
im the worst thing that's ever created.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083671389644864382004-05-04T19:49:00.000+08:002004-05-04T19:53:40.263+08:00SWING SWING SWING.
MUACKZ.
right. just got back from swinging.
with ana and had coffee at cottage pies and went to the library.
found some cookbooks to get ideas to what to cook on thursday.
invited some frenz over for some fun.
heh.
how does broilled honeyed soy sauce chicken with black sesame seeds and a spicy salsa sound?
plus mashed potatoes with sweet roasted aubergines and chilly sour delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083653976057292452004-05-04T14:59:00.000+08:002004-05-04T15:03:30.326+08:00 M I L K . delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083653684619529952004-05-04T14:54:00.000+08:002004-05-04T14:58:38.950+08:00- - - - - - bleargh - - - - - - - - - - -
playing evanescence's album over and over.
been sleeping like a fucking pig.
tuesdays are boring.
i feel like doing omething. i feel like doing so many things. i want and need to do many things.
but i am just plain lazy and i feel tired.
stupid me. sleep like fuck somemore.
ok. lets not bore those readers.
hehe. haiz. hoho. haiz.
great. now its delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083641462427814372004-05-04T11:31:00.000+08:002004-05-04T11:34:59.310+08:00Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And
your voice caught within your chest?
-->It isn't Love, it's Like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,
am I right?
-->It isn't Love, it's Lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
-->It isn't Love, it's Luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
-->It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.
Are you there because it's what delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083640123491065522004-05-04T11:08:00.000+08:002004-05-04T11:12:40.653+08:00now and then
touching you. touching me.
carrassing me feeling you.
kissing me. kissing you.
bleed.
weep.
push me off the bridge.
FEELING you. FEELING me.
dont you dare leave me.
KISSING you. KISSING me.
dont u dare walk away from me.
it's all coming back.
paranoia.
self-misjudgement.
i thought i was fine.
i am fine.
supposedly.
but im still afraid.
nonetheless.
touching you. touching me. delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083639129243068532004-05-04T10:52:00.000+08:002004-05-04T10:56:06.623+08:00PONY.pumpkin.RIDE.milk.THREESOME.haunted.sleep.SMIRNOFF.
i hope ive not gone too far.
fear. fear .fear. fearless.
haiz.
LOSS.
no no . i dont wanna hear that word again. haiz. argh.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083477729049302542004-05-02T14:02:00.000+08:002004-05-02T14:06:23.060+08:00delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083477627530378512004-05-02T14:00:00.000+08:002004-05-02T14:04:41.560+08:00delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083476342759521212004-05-02T13:39:00.000+08:002004-05-02T13:43:16.390+08:00Elephant (Gus Van Sant, 2003)
Elephant feels a lot like a masterpiece to me, even if I’m not quite ‘sure’ about it. Details, on the surface level, are resolutely mundane, and the central question of “Why did these things need to be shown on the same day?” remains. But so does the question of whether that question is ethical or philosophical (it’s both), because although there’s no direct, delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083476013740344522004-05-02T13:33:00.000+08:002004-05-02T13:37:47.403+08:00delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083475564573205692004-05-02T13:26:00.000+08:002004-05-02T13:30:18.326+08:00delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083475023711256582004-05-02T13:17:00.000+08:002004-05-02T13:21:17.530+08:00my last breath
hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083474899247236582004-05-02T13:14:00.000+08:002004-05-02T13:19:13.076+08:00EPHEMERAL.delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-10834747536130832004-05-02T13:12:00.000+08:002004-05-02T13:16:47.466+08:00haunted
long lost words whisper slowly to me
still can't find what keeps me here
when all this time i've been so hollow inside
i know you're still there
watching me wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
fearing you loving you
i won't let you pull me down
hunting you i can smell you - alive
your heart pounding in my head
watching me wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
saving me raping me
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083429619943987592004-05-02T00:40:00.000+08:002004-05-02T00:44:32.840+08:00ohand yea. watched ELEPHANT that day. a good show. yup yup. yummy yummy beautiful males. slurrps.
should watch it over and over and over...
gotta find the vcd.
oh and yea.
i think i am turning alcoholic.
goodbye caffiene.
hello alcohol.
delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3864399.post-1083428903199382402004-05-02T00:28:00.000+08:002004-05-02T00:32:36.200+08:00Tourniquet
I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more.
(So much more)
I'm dying,
And I'm pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.
I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.
Am I too lost to be saved ?
Am I too lost ?
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
Do you remember me ?
Lost for so long.
Will you be on the other side ?
Will you delicate boy in a hysterical realm.http://www.blogger.com/profile/00532381629944758599noreply@blogger.com